What I meant by the title was that Etain tagged me quite a while back and now so did Chai Yin. Now since they both tagged me the same thing, I’ll only do it once. Sike!

Rules of the game:
Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in their blogs 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to tag then list their names out.

1) I’ve recently found out, everytime after recess at school, I’d feel damn sleepy and will eventually fall asleep. Like it’s been happening a lot. And everytime I wake up from it, I’d complain, “Shit. See how fat I am. Look at the size of my tummy. OMG my double chins. Jorrr. Fuck lahhhh.” ALL in one shot to my poor classmate, Ee Von.

2) Nowadays, I’m afraid to go to sleep. Wormy called it, sleepophobic. I’m afraid to because I’ve been having nightmares almost every night. Why can’t I have superhero dreams where I can fly? Jeez.

3) I hate my writing. It’s so goddamn ugly, messy, sharp, pointy, bladabladabla.

4) I prefer hugs over kisses anytime. :] I bite lips when I kiss. <3 Now that's two weird facts about me.

5) OMG. I’m not suppose to bring or wear anything red for 3 months and I JUST realised I brought my super red backpack to school yesterday. This is not weird, but I just make it seems weird.

6) My idiot brother got a spankin’ new PSP for his birthday from his godfamily which happens to my cousins from my mom’s side. At first, I find it exciting because what’s his is mine, what’s mine stays mine, then I got bored of it after checking out all the functions. Don’t know what’s the fuss about.

I tag:
Those who are bored outta their mind like me.

I cheated. Not all are weird facts, so what?

I guess it’s time to fill the world in about what happened in my life last week.
Most of my school friends must already know by now for I was a week absent.

Right. So the big news is,
My dad passed away last Friday.

And the last entry I was blogging about having to go sleep
because I was going out with Tee Liang and Amy by train.

How fucking ironic.
I can’t believe how casual I’m blogging about this. Damn me.

The funeral was on for three days.
He was cremated at Fairypark, where else.
I even took pictures of everything but I don’t think it’d be appropriate to put them up.

He died when I was on the bus to Pyramid.
I got the call from Tommy telling me to go back Klang at once, that dad fainted.
We got off at Pyramid then took a taxi to the station.
When I was in the train, I got the second call telling me he’s dead.

Why would I say he died when I was on the bus?
Because his heart already stopped beating seconds after he fainted.
He was at his first wife’s place. She told me he was already gone then.

Sighh. It’s so cruel.

He was only discharged that morning.
He’s been in the hospital for the past two weeks and the doctor said he was clear to go home.
Look what happened after he did, but I can’t blame no one for this because with his condition, it was expected.
Heart enlargement, at least he did not suffer.
It was easy, the heart just stopped beating.

I just can’t fucking stand the fact that he’s not here anymore.
I HAVE SO MANY FUCKING THINGS TO SETTLE WITH HIM.
Goddamnit.

My dad and I are never close. NEVER.
We do not speak to each other unless its him shouting at my face calling me names.
We do not understand each other.
We do not do whatever daughters and daddies do together.
And to say I’m the first and eldest daughter.
I should have gotten more love, innit?

I had it all planned out.
That by 18, I was going to sit down with him and talk it through and through.
About how he never ask about how I was.
About how he never bother to talk me.
About how he just seems like he doesn’t fucking care.

God. There are so many questions.
And he just left like that. ISHHHHHHH.

You people will not understand the frustration and emotions I’m going through.
I fucking hate to say this, but I don’t feel the lost.
I miss him but it just feels the same.
He’s never here and now he’ll never be.
That’s all.

My other three siblings are all grieving, reminiscing memories with him.
Me? I’m sitting there, thinking what memories do I have with him that I can reminisce about.
In one human’s life, they’d only have one dad and mom.
In this lifetime, I will never know my dad.

Whatever. I’ll let it go sooner or later.

Mom’s holding on pretty well.
With the many problems he left us, she’s doing really fine.
She misses him and cries a bit now and then but she’s really tough.
I know the family will be alright.

Now that I’ve got that typed out.
I’m going to talk about my relationship.

I broke up with BR.
Not that I think many people know that we were even together.
So there you go, we broke up.

And I can’t fucking believe that I fell in love with him.
No, don’t get me wrong. He’s amazing and best of all, I trust him.
I have problem trusting boyfriends.

It’s just that his feelings faded.
Right when I was falling in love with him.
So it’s really a bit fucked up.

It just hurts because the memories are all so beautiful and the happiness both of us were in was truly there.
It hurts when I think back how genuine he was when he called that very night, sober and said he loved me and that he wants to be the one caring and loving me.
It hurts thinking back that night in the car, where we argued but he was holding back his anger because he loved me that much.
It hurts even more because I know now that he doesn’t love me anymore.

If only I ended it while we were dating, then I wouldn’t be in this pain.
But oh well, that’s how life goes.

I really want the memories to go away, at least for now until I move on from him.
It sucks everytime I think how I’ve finally gave him my heart only to have him reject it.

I dated him for about 3 months before agreeing to be his girlfriend on New Year where we took a joyride to Genting. Then I finally said “I love you” to him in February at Bernard’s house when I was half drunk.

Yeah. I’ve even made sure that when I was about to tell him I love him, that I was sure and clear about my feelings for him.
That was how careful I was in this relationship.

Honestly cannot believe how bad I want this one guy, who doesn’t even have anything in common with me except for our likings of Modern’s tandoori chicken and some other crappy stuffs.
I guess it’s all because he was the first guy in all my relationships after Chuonyee’s that I trust with my life, even now.

Bahhhh. Bodoh bodoh bodoh.

FINALLY !

So let’s get down to business.
The holidays so far pretty much suck.
All thanks to the stupid essays I’m suppose to do for Moral and the stupid brochure for PJK.
4 freaking essays and I have no idea how to even start.
If only I ruled the school, or better, the country.

Like I said, I’ve been out and about a lot.
Out with the boys. Out with the boys. Out with the boys.
Mamak session almost every night.
Dance performance too.

Last Saturday was Be That Girl ‘07.
Held at KEC and we were super late for it.
Totally wasted RM10 which could already buy me a ticket for a movie.
The fashion show was boring and I know they put a lot of effort into it but I guess I was just not into it.
The dance performances were alright. Especially Faye’s.

We went out of the hall when one of the speakers went on stage.
I cannot take those religious talk. No offense.
So right, we goofed around outside at the corridor.
Then we made our way outside of the lobby then to the poolside.
That Eng Huat story Dummy told had me and TL laughing till our tummy ache.

Here are the goofy pictures we took that night.
There are still pictures I snapped with Leucine and Lauren but I was too lazy to photoshop.
Don’t worry. We looked good. Heh.

This one with TL skateboarding was shot with his phone at Botanic earlier that day.

I wanted to make sure I’m credited because he, whom I assume forgot to,
on his Friendster page.

Ha Ha Ha.

Thereeee. I’m done blogging.
I’m going out later at 11am.
It’s 4am right now.
Taking a train to Subang.
Movie marathon on Saturday night !
Wheee. I cannot wait.
And also Bevan’s potluck party at his house.
Confirm the time sooner, my dear.

Nerd was just telling me.
He was going around looking for job where he stopped by this shop called Custom Print.
The owner, Rusty, stopped Nerd and told him that he liked the teeshirt he was wearing.
Nerd was wearing the black shirt we PKAFM designed before he left.
The guy said he wanted to take pictures of it and put up in his shop.
Besides that, he designed his own version based on ours.
Nerd said it’s a beauty. LOL. I wanna see sial.
So I can say, we have a additional member of PKAFM.
I’m kidding.

Owh Nerd’s worried bout people in Moo Moo land’s going to think he stole the design from Custom Print. Haha. Be proud lah weh. We the pioneers.

First off, I wanna apologies to the three blogs I linked up previously.
I know I offended you guys so yeah sorry.
If it’d make anyone of you all feel better, I’d take it off.
It’s cool with me that you guys came around and hit me back
but honestly, don’t come and leave me comments telling me to stop being what I like being cause I know clearly what I’m doing.

(this was suppose to be posted yesterday but I got lazy)

Right, this whole weekend had sucked real bad.
No wait, make it the whole week.
I’m not talking about the test.

So today I asked half of the PKAFM, Damien / Dummy and Tee Liang out to hang out with Amy and Izzat who had already planned to spend time at Winter Cafe to play Counterstrike earlier. Dummy came around 4.

Reached Modern to find another friend of Izzat’s who I’ve met earlier at the 7-11 in front of school. He works there. He’s a nice guy, obsessed with his band, The Diamond. And I don’t know his name. Shit.

We did play CS. I don’t remember how long we played but in the whole game I killed two times only. Now how’s that for a loser. Haha.

Dummy and I decide to watch a movie so we did. With TL along of course. We watched Turistas. That movie’s good. Kept me jumping. Not too gross and just right. Recommended.

I’m currently in love with this particular song.
Hellogoodbye - Here In Your Arms.

My favourite part?

“Well, you are the one, the one that lies close to me
Whisper’s “Hello, I miss you quite terribly”
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there’s no place else I could be but here in your arms”

Yeaps. The chorus.
It’s such a beautiful song.
Not too corny but just so sweet.

Heard of the prepaid credit card by AmBank?
It’s called NexG.
I’m planning to get one myself so that I can shop online.
It’s really convenient. No need for bank account or salary statements.
Plusssss, the credit limit is RM10,000. Wheee.
That’s more than enough but like as if I’d have that much credit to top up.

VOTE FOR ME PLEASE !

OMG.
Guys please do this for me.
Take your time and please vote for my blog’s design.

Register here first.
Then login.
Then go here and vote for me.

Look out for my blog’s name and my name.
I’ll love you guys to death.

Gotta go. Tuition at 8pm and I haven’t shower.

Edit : It’s only allowed to vote once a day for each account.
Please do it for me, I wanna win really really really bad.

Kimberly’s evil twin says : Plus it wouldn’t be fair for this or this or this blog to win right.
Look at them ! And they’re on the TOP 5 by the way. So unfair.

Yeah yeah. Am that mean. LOL.

Edit, again: Better strike it off lahh. People tend to get so touchy. Jeesh. And fyi, I was talking about the designs.

Been trying to convince myself to blog these past two days but failed.
I’m easily distracted.

Harry Potter was on my list to blog about.
I’m sure most of you know that it’s the last and final book of the 7 part series.
The last book’s name is Harry Potter and The Deatly Hallows by the way.
It’s going to be released on 21st of July 2007.

MPH’s accepting bookings already.
I haven’t book yet because I didn’t had enough cash with me when I was at BRSM.
Damn, I can’t fucking wait.
I’ve read through all the six books so many times throughout the past 6 years (when I started reading HP), I lost count.

So far my favourite would have to be The Order of the Phoenix because Dumbledore brought back The Order, the secret meetings of the Dumbledore’s Army in the Room of Requirement (which i totally wish exists), the havoc the Weasley twins did right before they left the school and of course Hagrid’s half-giant brother, Grawp. Oh, last of all, because of the ending where Fudge had to admit personally that Voldy was back. Can imagine that face of his, hah. TAKE THAT, BITCH !

Haha.

Of course, I hated it when Sirius had to die just like that. I hated it because that toad Dolores Umbridge totally ruined Hogwart for a year. Hated it when there was no Quidditch for Harry, thus not much of Quidditch was written about. Hated it when it was revealed that Kreacher was the one who betrayed Harry and Sirius which led to Harry’s mistake and Sirius’s death. Hated how the wizardry world was treating Harry like he was the one to blame. Those idiots.

Ahh. Yes. I lost control again.

Take note, I wished the Room of Requirement was real because wouldn’t it be nice to have a place of your own to run to whenever you need to be alone?

Anyway, the pre-order deposit is RM70 , which is also the price of the book.
Way cheaper than the last two, suprisingly.
Well whatever, as long as I order, get the receipt, wait for the big day and voila!
I’ll be sleepless for nights until I’m done reading every word.
No. I won’t even pick up calls. LOL

The 5th movie is coming soon too. July 13th 2007.
About a week earlier than the book release.

I don’t agree with people when they say the movie’s better than the book. The movies are sometimes shortened in which I don’t blame the directors cause the book’s simply too long. The last movie HP & the Goblet of Fire seriously sucked in my opinion. Furthermore, books are more detailed and so the imagination runs beyond those actions in the movie.

Hmm. I’m full. First Domino’s pizza in months.