My back hurts.
Like really bad and I thought after dancing with Alvin and Francis them all for Star Dust was bad enough. I hate those moves Meei comes up with. Gosh.

I was so exhausted. I just wanted to lie down and cool off. Wanted somebody to come hug my stinky body to make me feel alright. I’m not sure of the cause but today was pretty hard for me. I was sort of like zone out from everybody. Maybe next time somebody should just come to my face and slap me awake from whatever that’s depressing.

I’m sure you’d like that, huh? To hurt me. Bak datang lah. *inside joke*

Don’t feel like talking about dancing. Don’t feel like talking about studies, of course since when have I ever been. Don’t feel like talking about anything at all really. Oh wait maybe I should talk about clothes.

Got my eyes on this hoodie from Hellz Bellz but goddamn expensive. About RM400 if I’m not wrong, unless the distributor here sells it cheaper but I doubt it.

Practise at 9am tomorrow. I better get to sleep. I’ll need all the energy I can have to complete the routine by 12pm . See you guys moro. Night.

Tribe Graffiti Competition.

Information.
Venue : Dataran Pahlawan Megamall Melaka
Date : 3rd June 2007
Time : 12am - 4pm
Registration Fees : RM 20 / person
Register Before : 25th May 2007
Concept : Crew Production (2 - 5 people each group)
Spray Cans : By Own
Plywood Size : Depends on crew quantity
Prize : Cash
Judge : Vote By Public

Rules & Regulations.
: Contestants have to register before 25th May 2007.
: Each group is only allowed 2 - 5 crew.
: All works will be retained under KLAN and KLAN has the rights and may display, show, publish, duplicate or even dispose all the entries without participant’s consent.
: Judges’ decisions are final.
: Art works will be judge by :
theme/concept: 20%, color combination: 20%, skills: 20%, style: 20% , techniques: 20%.
: Contestants have to register & pay the registration fees before 11.30 am.
: To register , please sms your CREW/GROUP name & CREW quantity to 012 6013 492 (example : Tribe Crew , 3 Crews ) before 25th May 2007.

Music Aid.

Music Aid is a charity AIDS awareness Campaign/Music Concert that will promote AIDS awareness among youths of today.

Come and witness local celebs like DRAGON RED and KLG SQWAD in action!!!

Stay for the lucky draw!!
All procedds will go to the Malaysian AIDS Foundation.

Have fun, stay safe.

Venue : Klang Executive Club (KEC)
Date : 4th May 2007 (Friday)
Time : 7.00pm to 9.00pm
Ticket Price : RM 20

Note : Might end later than stated.

For more info, contact :
Michael Yap : 012 385 2731
Sharmraaj : 012 243 4768
Tze Shern : 012 289 2045

“I love you, don’t ever fucking question that,
that’s why we’ll probably never get along.
if I was better at finding the right words to say,
I wouldn’t need to write these motherfucking songs. “

It’s very macho according to Dennis.
He read my blog recently and had comments.
My blog is filled with anger, it seems.
I am a very angry person, it seems.
Too many bitchings and fuck fuck all, it seems.
All according to Dennis, of course.
That’s why I need to pick up tennis already,
cause according to Dennis it’s very good for people like me.

LOL. Funny shit. *whoosaaa whooosaaa*

It’s been quite some time since I actually sat down and typed out a decent entry.
Tomorrow’s the rehearsal for the La Salle I.U day at KEC.
Guess what? Amy and Michy are dancing too.
For once it’s not only “I’m performing”, it’s “We’re performing”.
I’m so excited. Michy’s with Penny’s crew while Amy’s in mine, replacing Ling.

Told Leucine off for taking her shower at 12am when I, myself showered at 3.
Am freaking freezing right now.
My fingers can’t even move fast because they are so cold.
I’m passing hints here.
My room’s got a new air cond !

What? I’m boasting. Can?

My room has been air cond-less for about a year plus okay?
Been sleeping in my brother’s room for the whole period.
Different bed like d’oh. He has like what, two queen sized bed in his room.

This is no a very detailed or so-called decent entry is it?
Damn. I feel so bimbo.

Humilation.
That was what today’s basketball match was to me.
I suck at basketball. I stopped playing ever since Form 3.
No, I don’t have the passion for it too and I knew where my talent for it was.
I was forced and pushed to enter because of a certain Mei Kuan.
She begged and begged and pleaded until I couldn’t say no.
So fine, I played.
Tiu, I wasn’t serious why playing cause I didn’t feel like it and I knew from the beginning she was going to flip, as usual.

She was like “Just because you know we’re going to lose at least play properly lah. Be serious lah.”

Eh come on, I didn’t want to play in the first place because I know being in the same team with you memang no fun cause of that attitude of yours so don’t come telling me to be serious and all that crap. Doesn’t get to me. Yet again, change your bloody attitude please. Never change. Ever since the day I know you, you’ll still the same’ol you. Go think again about why usually you feel lonely. Jeesh. We’re already Form 5.

Enough. I stink like a *insert whatever stinks*. So I’m off to shower.
Today’s E Jinn’s birthday celebration with the classmates.
Going over later. Expect vain pictures.

My mom asked me just now if I missed my dad or not.
I told her no.
She asked me if I was starting to forget about him.
I told her no, I’m not forgetting about him. I just don’t miss him.

If he’s alive and I say that to his face, he’ll have me in the emergency room in less than an hour.

Finally my set of pictures from the bash.
First off we had the stage and then the rest are just poyo shots.

Introducing Bboy Great Switch & Bboy Blackz.
Blackz is one of my favourite bboys ever. Those dimples are killers.
The second picture reminds me of a baby monkey. LOL.

P.S : This is called free of charge promotion. Promoting that they’re single and looking. Both above 20 years old. OMG, Blackz is sooo going to kill me.

This is Wai Cheong aka WC from Element Crew. He’s single too, I think. Haha.

Bboy Sabamon if I’m not wrong. They performed for Point Blanc’s set which Schizzie was on too as a hypeman. I shouted your name until my lungs got hard okay.

Last of all, this is Billy Ng. Senior from school.
How small can the world be?
I found out he knows Dennis too.

Added more pictures !
How can I not take at least one shot with Cristal whom I’ve not seen for about half a year.
Damnit. My face is so round and fat. Like Humpty Dumpty.

WOOOTS.
The bash is over.
I’m hell high. Free flow of Carlsberg. How can I not indulge?
All thanks to Adam for getting us into the VIP tent.
Plus, we got to hang out with Michy after so long although Amy couldn’t join us.
She was super fine with her red dress. Hah.

The bash was a blast because I met up with all those people I haven’t seen in months.
Schizzieb, Cristal, Adam, Billy, and so on.
I’m damn glad I got to see you guys and talk to ya’ll again.
Also met up with online friends, Dennis and met new people.
I was about to have Dennis dead when Schizzie told me he was still in Kuantan.
Thank god he showed up.

The pictures are in the camera but I did not snapped much because there wasn’t the camwhoreness feeling but I know the videos are in Cristal’s camera so hold up to watch the performances.

I’m fucking high right now, I swear.
So I’mma go shower and sleep so that I can get up on time for the dance recruitment for SGM tomorrow. *crosses fingers*

Damn I smell so good and it’s not even DKNY Be Delicious.
It’s this new shower foam I bought at the pharmacy, Ellgy.
Recommended. Makes you smell like a big baby all over again.
Wonderful. Hah.

I’m about to rant really bad now.
Remember me saying that I feel like and look like shit nowadays?
Do not think I’m kidding cause I’m 110% serious.
Take a look at the condition of my face and you’ll understand what I mean.
I’m surprised people didn’t just start laughing at my face.
Hormones, pimples, pores, blackheads be damned. Grrrrrr.

My mom is a beautician.

That statement is soooooooo just for show.
My 30-years-older-than-me mom owns nicer, smoother, fairer, pimple-lesser skin than me.
And she doesn’t even want to save me from this living nightmare.
Maybe she’s just tormenting me for staying up late and missing school so many times.

Right. That must be it.
I should go get that Drumstick Spiro and brainwash my mom.

This is ruining my self esteem so tell me how can I not feel like shit when I look like one?

Amyhunny is back from Langkawi .
She bought Dummy his Mild Seven pack which was fake anyway.
She gave him a stick of cigar which I tried and hated because it tasted like cough syrup.
She bought me something but I’ve not see her yet so I don’t know what’s it.
In conclusion, she’s back lahhh.
Felt damn weird when she didn’t call to ask me what’s up.
Felt even weirder when I know I can’t ask her to hang out. LOL.

I need a freaking new hairstyle or just a haircut.
It looks like crap now.
Fuck, another stab to my self esteem, you see.

This is depressing. I’m off to sleep.

Oh man. Finally I figure out everything and got the answers for my questions.

I called him. (yes, i did)
And asked him straight if he was with her or not.
He told me they wasn’t, but I wasn’t about to let him get away that easily so I pushed and asked until he said “I’m not sure what are we (as in he and her) so you go ask her.”
LOL.

Of course I didn’t ask, I mean hello, she’s suppose to be like the enemy right?
So wrong if I violated that rule in the girls’ world or something.

Anyway, I laughed at it. He laughed at it. We laughed at it.
It as in the *half a sec* I’m not that sure also. Haha.

I mean come on, the idea of both of us after everything we’ve been through just to be together then in the end of it, have to hear him says “That’s why. I wasn’t sure what I was doing or feeling about you and her that’s why I broke up otherwise it’d be consider lying to you right?” is sure damn funny.

He asked if I was angry with him. I said no.
I mean what’s there to be of?
More like tak puas.
Wasted time, feelings and memory space. LOLOLOL.
But one thing wasn’t wasted, motorbikes.
He told and showed me what was so special about it
and I guess I liked it, for real.

I blame him though, for pulling me into his world.
We are so different but he got me into some things I never thought I’d like.

Maybe TL’s right and he really did play around with me but that’s not important anymore.
Wouldn’t be his first time playing with me anyway.
But if she knew about it then I’mma salute her cause she tolerated with him.

I told him I consider us a fling and he asked me what was that.

fling (flng)
n.

4. A brief sexual or romantic relationship.

Oh, I’m almost sure she checks out my blog so…

*waves*

LMFAOOOOO.

It’s only Monday and I’m already feeling bored of the week.
Although the birthday bash is this Saturday but it’s still a long way to go.

Anyway I just wanted to reply all those comments you nice people left for me about my dad’s death. There are so many so I thought I’d just reply it with an entry. I don’t really know how to respond to these kinda responses so sorry yeah if it doesn’t seem like I appreciate it, cause I DO.

Gwen : Thanks for being there. :]

Samantha : I don’t think I’m that strong but I’m holding on. I’m cheerful enough. Haha.

MichelleOh : Thanks. & the one in Multiply. <3

Adelyn : I’m doing alright. I can tell you’re a very tough girl yourself. That’s good.

e-Lena : Do you mind leaving me your link again? I’m pretty sure I lost it and forgot to link you up. I’m letting it go. The whole thing and him. I know he’s gone and never coming back so there’s no point feeling bad over it. I’ll be alright and thanks a million bucks for being so nice eventhough like you said, we don’t know each other that well enough.

Fatt : Thank you.

Adam : Okay which Adam is this? Thank you and yeah time heals everything.

May : You people are seriously so niceeee. OMG. Relationships are messy. That’s it. I know I had a place but it just suck knowing he never took the chance to show me that but whatever. It’s over and I’m letting it go. Thanks by the way.

Etain : Haha. Yes. So improper for a daughter innit? I see you’ve been through it huh. Yeah well, gotta accept it as a lesson and experience and hopefully I’ll be more invulnerable than this in the future.

U-Mae : Thanks for posting and showing you care. Will be seeing you soon!

Aunty Denise : I was. Someone old but new in a way. So complicated. I miss you. Come back and let me know so that we can meet up. We’re doing fine by the way. The family I mean. Swt.

Soya : Thanks bro. I know you are.

Suzanne : Thankkkkksss. I love talking to you, you know?

Khadijah : Death’s are always shocking huh? Thanks girl.

Dee : Thank you babe. *hugs*

Eng Seong : Am surprised you read my blog. You’re from ACS right? Anyway thank you.

Lester : I’m pretty happy. Ask Tommy. Haha. Thanks lil’kid.

Yen Ping : Babe ! Thank you. I’ll take care.

Daphne : I’m alright babe. Thanks.

Kenny : Haha. I will call on you. Cheers dude.

1P : Whoever you are, thanks. I’m not sure if he did manage to do anything we can consider noble, but I’m sure lots of people remembers him as who he is.

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Right. That’s all the replies for the comments and messages on the chatbox.
*hugs everybody*

By the way, I can’t link anyone up for god knows why but have no fear, I’ll figure it out when I have the mood and time.

Penny, E-Jinn and Daphne darling.
I’m sorry yeah. I’ll link you guys up as soon as possible.

Nowadays I don’t feel the urging-ness to blog about my daily life. I used to feel that.
Like whatever happens in school, I’ll note it in my head to blog about it as soon as I reach home or if I’m in the car and saw something stupid happen, I’ll remember to make fun of it on my blog. Maybe I’m getting tired of blogging.

My stinking blog is about to run out of bandwidth again.

I know I should buy more space instead of having the free one which is obviously not enough but I don’t have the money yet. Supposedly to get paid for the ads I put up but the company haven’t reply my last email which is equally as frustrating as getting those emails informing me that my blog is about to exceed its bandwidth limit. God.

So just in case it does exceed the limit and you guys can’t get through,
go to my Vox blog @ dripk.vox.com
Bookmark it, damnit. It doesn’t take much effort.
I’ll blog there if I can’t here.

So what’s the 411 so far?

Let’s recap the week.

Was packed with dance practice and competitions.
I competed in two.
One was at Cheras on Saturday night. Another at Klang Parade on Sunday afternoon.
I won both. Chamption Team at Cheras. First Runner-Up for the solo category at KP’s.

I was glad we won at Cheras cause we practised like fuck for it.
Andddd, we had to perform under the pouring rain. It rained all evening and night.
Anddddddd, I did not repeat the mistakes I did at the audition the week before.
So glad.

To make the weekend better, I got second for the solo category at KP which I honestly did not expect because I had less than 24 hours to come up with a mixed track and routine. I did manage to mix up a track in between 2 hours on Sunday itself but I failed to create a routine so all I did was get on that stage and freestyled until I felt like an idiot.

I SWEARRRR I WAS SO FRUSTRATED WITH MYSELF ON STAGE.

Goddamn because I was freestyling and I did not had any idea how my moves turn out to look like. It was as if I was making a fool out of myself. Jeeesh.

Thank goodness it turned out alright.
Only I could have done better if I was dressed better, according to the judges.
The champion was this kid who can move her hips better than any kid I know.
She’s only 9, I think and she can shake. Fuihhh. Super cute.

Kayyy. Enough of dancing.

I’m moving on from the old flame cause I’m almost a hundred percent sure he got back together with his ex (the one before me). LOL. The irony of starting the relationship in the first place right. That’s how it usually goes lahhh. Gotta get use to it. There’s more of this kind of crap to come in the future, I’m sure. Heartbreaks, I mean.

“Got this icebox where my heart used to be..”

Naw mean? Haha.

Been missing school quite often but missed nothing much because most of the teachers was out of class anyway. Caught up pretty quickly after my one week absence. The second monthly test is tomorrow. My school is so damn kiasu*.

The Hitz.fm Birthday Bash is next week and everybody’s talking about it.
I’m going, one way or another. I’m going.
Do you have any idea how many bands are going to be there?
Not to mention singers, rappers, dancers (i think), and hotties?
No one confirmed with me yet but I’m going to poke till they do by Wednesday.

Damnit. That’s all I have for now.
In case you wonder why there are no pictures of anything it’s because the camwhoreness has washed off for awhile. There’s just no “pose pose” feeling nowadays. Been feeling and looking like shit nowadays too.

*Go look it up, fool.