For the first time in weeks or maybe months, I feel really peaceful.
I have no idea why it just hit me but after coming home and the midnight shower, I feel damn good.

I didn’t even click ferociously on the computer to try to make things fast. (doesn’t work trust me)
I didn’t even mind walking here and there just to do things. (i’m that lazy. i get my brother to do it)

So right now I’m trying not to think too much so that the feelings won’t go away.

Stupid isn’t it?
It just feels too damn good let it go away.

No, life’s still the same.
Nothing changed and nothing amazing happened.

I was in the shower the other day and it suddenly hit me.
That this is my last year in school.
As in the very last year to wake up everyday and go school or realised I overslept.
It’s going to be the year after the end of the year holiday that I don’t have to go dig out my book list to buy the books I’m going to need for the year after and get all excited about packing my bag for the first day.

Damn. I’m so going to miss it and yet I’m glad.

11 years of school is probably the way of life but it’s a very long period isn’t it?
Thinking back, I can’t even remember my primary school years that much anymore.
But, I still remember my first day. I always will.
My first going to primary school and my first day going to high school.

One was amazing and the latter sucked.

I remember making my very first bestfriend on day one.
Fiona Yuen. Bloody smart girl. It’s been a long time since I’ve seen her.
Then my first day in high school was really shitty because I stood outside the school gate under the glaring sun for 45 minutes waiting for my friends.

Memories. Hmmmm.

Today the Sports Science class had a trip to UiTM.
It was nothing but fun. No, it was hot and tiring too.

We got to see and learn a lot of stuffs.
Especially the Anatomy slot.

We got to see those corpse we usually watch on tv or those videos we have in our phone.
Nah, we didn’t witness them processing it but we got to see most grossy stuffs.

I thought we were pretty lucky because not everyone gets this chance.

I got home and told momsie about it in the car and she freaked out.
Like I thought she would. Hah.

Too bad we weren’t allowed to take pictures otherwise … *evil laughs*

I don’t know why but I had a good time laughing today.
We camwhored so much even En.Sazli got the bug.
He’s our “En.Forever Young” now.
And that fella right, can salah anggap a nose stud with habuk. Swt.

It happened when we were in the elevator.

I was talking to Amy and he was looking at me with the weirdest expression then all of a sudden he just grab my stud and pull. I screamed and he’s like *insert shock expression*. “Cikgu, what you doing ?!” “I thought habuk lahhh”. That got Amy and Wei Guan laughing till can die.

The pictures are with Janus and Amanda.
They’ll be up as soon as I get them.

Here’s something totally out of the topic.
Jey Sern aka Peonne’s very powerful bike, or so he says.

I’m skipping school.

The answer to the last entry for those who cannot figure out.

There are THREE OFs. So plus the 3 Fs you found with the OFs there are 6. Tadaa!

Kay. I don’t even know what to blog because the entries nowadays are filled with drama.
It’s over for me, but she’s going at it with my babes.
So if she did message you other people on Friendster do let me know.

Seriously she’s pissing people off but lucky my babes are fun people.
We know how to have fun.

I’ve resigned from my job.
Going to work until the end of the month only.
Need time off to study, and I’m serious.
Seriously.

Planned study groups with Amy and going to with Mich on Monday.
Sounds fun although we’re going to be revising and revising and revising.

Alamak. Boon Win is bugging me to go out. Toodlooo.

Enough of those emo entries huh?

Count every ” F ” in the following text :

Commented on that entry by this guy, Wei Yoong or something.

“if bicthes like u dont do anything we may call u girls but why make us call u bitch ? for publicity huh ?

btw i think u do understand of bitch rite ? female dog haiz.. wad they alwayz do on street . U wana be one of them ? or u had already been ?

Come on stop being posers . IF his family thinks that she is clever then she is la if not you expect his family to accept a bitch as part of them ? maybe for u guys . Anyway these replies shows how sucky u all are . Aint happy ? then take back what u lost IF only u can . IF not stfu . SIT and WATCH . Dun talk cock here .”

Now really. Why are there people like this?
I don’t get it.

This guy for example totally judge “us” (whoever “us” is) and indirectly mean “we” are sluts.
I mean his definition of bitch is a female dog and usually these dogs get fuck in the streets.
So what he meant was I’m a slut?

Correct me if I’m wrong but that’s what I understand from his text.

Now I don’t care if I’m called a bitch because I admit I am but I got my definitions right.

Now I know lewd means lustful or something like that, but I’m a bitch who bitches, bitch.
Naw mean?

I’m unpleasant when I am and I say mean things when I say. At least I don’t deny facts.

But the last thing he said got on my nerves,
“if you’re not happy, take back what you lost if only you can”.
But who the fuck ever said I wanted him back?

Right. See what I mean when she wants to embarrass me?
Even if she didn’t, she did indirectly already.

I mean, what the fuck man.
Who is he to call me a slut?

Sometimes right, try to understand things first before saying anything, or in your vocab, cock.

Don’t cock.

Fuihhh. I’m exhausted.
After an eventful day (hah!) and work.
No wait, I didn’t really work.
Things got in the way so I sneaked to the back to make calls.

Today was also Ann’s birthday.
Ann’s a he. He’s my colleague.
He turned 22. So old horr?

LOL. He’ll kill me.

Well the rest of the staffs and I celebrated with him at Berkeley’s.
He had tears. Seriously.

(sorry for the bad quality. my useless 2mp camera phone did not do it’s best)

I’m going to sleep. Amy’s coming over later in the morning.
She’ll have me dead if I don’t wake up.
But before hitting the sacks, I wanna post up a shoutout to this really random person.

Random : I don’t know who’re you or either you’re a he or she or whether I know you personally or not but YOU’RE THE MAN LAHHHH. Thanks for those words. I was half expecting to come and read comments of her friends flaming me but read yours instead. Thanks yea. <3333

Night night.

I wanted to call her straight and TALK like a decent person but kicked the idea out.
Amy’s right. Just blog it straight.
Unless she’s still crazy. I’m going to give her a call and talk.

So you ALL should know my ex, BR and
how heartbroken I was when we broke up.
Who doesn’t think about their ex when the memories they had were beautiful, right?
I do not deny that I don’t miss him cause well I do, but ada salah ke?

Yes. I have a boyfriend. TL.
Fortunately and coincidencely we talked about this last night.
About him and his ex and me and my ex.
We both understand each other’s condition.
And both know that the ex is irreplaceable but we’ve moved on.

Now Boon Roy’s current girlfriend, Sharon wants to have her say.
(this is starting to sound damn lame)
So she started herself a new blog on Friendster, where everyone is welcome to read to so called warn me.

Hah.

Here’s the link : Her Emo Place worrr.

And here’s what I replied her.

There. That’s the last thing I’m throwing into the luggage.
And that’s the end of my packing.

I’m so excited you should see my face.

What?
I’ve never been to any other country besides Thailand and that was years ago when I was so young, I allowed my parents to strip me naked in front of their friends at a waterfall and TAKE PICTURES OF ME which turned into a very big potential blackmailing weapon. (it’s stashed somewhere damn well hidden.)

So yeah, I’m FUCKING EXCITED THAT I’M GOING SINGAPORE.

ulu, dramatic, lame. tell me bout it. hah !

I’ve even wrote down a list of names of whom I have to get pressies for. And there’s another list of what I want to buy. And another for shops / places that are a MUST to visit. And another checklist of things to bring there and back. And another of notes for moral project.

Funny ey. I’m doing my moral project. Well I don’t have another choice, I was thinking of using my dad’s funeral as the subject but I don’t think it’s appropriate so I’m replacing it with this vacation. I hate “Kekeluargaan” and all that “Alam Sekitar” crap.

Well, I gotta go sleep. Leaving early. I’m going to miss my babes and boys.
4 days macam 4 long weeks okay

drama drama. *roll eyes*

Phew. Finally I have time to blog.

UV NATION,
I did manage to get in.
Lucky for me, they didn’t suspect me at all which I think is because of the make up.
Unfortunately for Michy, she got suspected but she did pass through in the end.
Otherwise, I’d have no mood to party at all.

So we got to dance, hard. The End.

MIDVALLEY ON SUNDAY,
Well I was late, again but so were the boys so I’m forgiven..
I was broke but did get a new skirt.
We watched this Korean movie, 200 Pounds Beauty, which I did not want to watch at first.
It turned out to be pretty hilarious in the end.
Since school reopens the very next day, I decided to skip work again so that I’d have more time to get stuffs done such as cleaning up my room. Hah.

Well so far school still bores me, but I’ve got use to it ages ago like d’oh.
Now I really oughta stop skipping school and honestly set my records right.
Last five months to go before the big F.R.E.E.D.O.M, but I’m going to miss school lah. I know.

I’M GOING SINGAPORE !
Oh yes I am. This very weekend.
Michy tried not to talk to me because she said I didn’t tell her and she didn’t know … but I could have sworn I posted up an entry mentioning. LOL.
On the other hand, Amy’s getting tired of me repeating the same shit but we figured out what’s the most crucial thing to buy when I’m there, KEDS !
Cheap CHEAP Keds.

Amy’s sick. Food poisoning after a bowl or porridge.
I was pretty angry with something just now when she texted,
“I’m sick as a dog. My ass hurts like a gay boy.”
That got me laughing like a hyena

Who the fuck is calling me at this hour of time !?

That’s two protected entries in a week.
Pardon me but I’ve been emotional.

It’s already Friday. Damn.
Two more days and it’s back to school.
I’ve not even started on the papers school gave to complete.
Which reminds me,

Boon Win came over earlier in the morning.
He called at 10am sharp and told me he was on the way.
Being the lazy bum I am, I didn’t get up to wash my face and all that.
Then he called again in what was like 3 minutes later but we know that can’t be right, so let’s blame it on me for dozing off.

Oh, to those who don’t know (most of yall I guess) who is he, he’s Boon Roy’s lil brother.
Since 4 years ago, I’ve always been closer to him rather than the big bro.
We get along and eventhough he’s younger than me by one year and calls me “Jie”, we click.

Hah. Grandmother stories all coming out now.

So anyhoo, we talked about a lot of things.
From work to family to studies to drugs to relationships to racing.
Even had time to bitch.

… All these while his friend who came along with him, was sleeping on my couch.

It was fun. Like really fun.
After he left and helping mom, I went straight to sleep.
Then Amy came over with her husband to get the stud.
We talked about UV Nation and Summer Splash and how Amy’s gotta miss both because of her cousin’s wedding. Poor girl.
Anyway, after they left, I went back to sleep, again.

okbyez.

I hate Alvin lahhhhhhhh.
Yes you know why right.
Got me so messed up the whole damn day.
Bencinyerrrrr.

Anyhoo, the whole day was short.
That’s why I hate holidays.
The only reason why actually.
It seriously mess my sleep cycle up.
It’s all damn #$^@$@^&#&*%^.

Got Tommy and my passport done today.
I looked normal in the picture, thank you very much.
Not all weird and terrorists like.
Didn’t remember to take a picture of my old passport. Hah.
You’d crack and make fun of me all year.

Haven’t pick up the book yet because I was late.
Will do it later in the morning.
Like how the fuck was I suppose to know the bloody place closes at 5pm when they asked us to pick it up at 5.15pm.

Took my own sweet time to drive to ACS after leaving mom at Bkt.Tinggi to go see the boyfriend.
He was spraying with Yon Sern and Ivan.
Oh by the way guys, no offense lah, but the piece today was just TOO messy.
I know what you guys wanted it to look like but then just too much of it.
Okay, better shut up now.

Mom screwed me for being late and well yea, ugly scene in the car.
I just don’t get her and everything lah.
Sometimes things are just normal and simple and sometimes things are just hot and anger-ish.
Why can’t it be just nice. In between it all. Tiu.

Now I have a problem.
I’m not sure if my salary is RM4.5 / hour or just RM4.
I remember the boss telling it’s RM4.5 but I don’t recall asking personally.
Die. Had better ask moro. *takes mental note*

Today working was fun because one of the staffs lost her mind and started talking dirty which eventually got everyone else to do so too.

FUN ! I tell you.

Oh great.

I just won another ticket for UV Nation.
Now who wants it?
I can’t redeem it because they want to comfirm I’m over 18 well d’oh am not.
So who wants it?
Let me know.

Provide me with your :

NRIC details; fullname and number.
As well as your contact number and address.