Let’s see, SPM is in less than two weeks but here I am blogging.

These few weeks had been great.
I learnt new lessons about friends.
I learnt new moves from practise with the new crew, LaBellaMafeya.
I learnt that actually, I have a long lost twin, KimberlyV. Haha.
I learnt that being at my age, loving someone is impossible.
I learnt to put my priorities first.

*beams at self*

Momsie and TL’s birthdays were last week.
I got them both Cuppacakes.
I ate TL’s before giving it to him because I was mad at him. LOL.
It was Momsie’s first with cuppacakes and I’m glad she loved them.

Oh and here are long overdue pictures of Yung Shen’s Toyota Vios thing at OU.
I forgotten which exact weekend it was but I remember I went with Taufoo.
Somewhere around Raya week, I think.
At first I thought Toyota gave them real new cars to spray until YS told me they are mocks.
Pukima.

The artists and their work.

Those above are Yung Shen’s.
Those below are Bibichun’s.

Which one do you prefer?

Kayyy. That’s all.
What else is there to blog about?

So long bitches!
I think I’m going to be on hiatus until SPM ends.
Nerd would be back by then, I miss that fucker.
Whole lot of plans are made and would be made then.

My report after taking the ColorGenic test on Goldin Universe.
Thanks to Su Ning. You’re right. It’s pretty accurate.

Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard? Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behaviour.

There is that inherent fear that you may be prevented from attaining the better things in life - those things that you consider essential to your well-being. So you are prepared to try everything to prove to yourself that whatever you do or try will go wrong. This destructive attitude could come under the heading of ‘a self fulfilling prophesy’. This belittling yourself is your method of disguising how hopeless and what a waste of time you feel that everything is. So now turn it about. As you ‘think’, so you are… So ‘imagine’ yourself successful. ‘Pretend’, ‘act it out’ and you may be pleasantly surprised at the outcome.

That’s it. I’m tired of you and everything that’s going on between us.
Meaning the cold war if you others don’t follow me.

This is for her to read.

I know she texted you today and told you how she felt about what’s going on.
Now I’m just going to tell you what I feel.

The problem with you, is you.
It’s your attitude, I guess.
I can’t lay my fingers on it for sure.
But yeah, the word ‘attitude‘ can pretty much explains it all.

Like here’s an example.
You bitch about people you don’t like, to us.
A LOT OF THEM.
But you stil hang out with them and pretend to be really close and shit.
Isn’t that fake?

So I wonder do you do the same to us?
You say you don’t and if you did, you wouldn’t give two shits.
And do you dare say that you’ve never listen to their (as in those others you bitch about) problems?
And pleasee, you were never really there for us or at least me, remember?
Of course, I remember the Form 3 - 4 incident that brought us close but do you remember telling me that you were actually really insecure from the start about me? Afraid to trust me and all? So what the fuck?

Speaking of trust, if you don’t trust me, why would you wanna go and say things are fine between us?
Cause you see, I HONESTLY DON’T FUCKING CARE IF YOU DID.
It’d be better anyway.
And plus, isn’t that lying?

Since we’re on the topic of lies, you lied to me.
Straight to my face, woman.
Okay maybe not, but your words did reflect through my phone screen.

See, I don’t mind you and him being together. No ‘ex boyfriend are out of boundaries’ crap.
I mind because you as my ‘best friend’ lied to me about ‘there’s nothing between you two’ to ‘having something’ but still no word from you to this day.

And don’t you dare say ‘I don’t need to explain to the world what’s going on in my life’.
If so, the last time I needn’t had to explain to you right?
Could just let you fucked off and pissed off cause like I’d care when I was so happy already.

But like you said,
We are your bestest friends kan?
Plus,
He summore my ex boyfriend kan?
And,
What? You want me to feel how you felt last time?

I wouldn’t lah syg. I only liked him. Not crazily in love until cannot live without him.
And not like you don’t know that how I feel for him.
You knew the reason why I broke things off.

I don’t get it.
You had the balls to text me telling me not to ’simply think’ but no balls to tell me that ‘flower bloomed’?

Oh and also, can you please bear your own responsibilities for your own actions instead of pushing it and blaming it on others?

That’s just freaking low, okay.

Two incidents happened that’s related to this already.
I swear I could have broke something during the second incident.
You were just really lucky I wasn’t in the car.

You talked about childishness to me.
You talked about biting to me.
You had better remember what you called me that day in the toilet because HA! take a good look at yourself please!

Who always go on about ‘eeeee she copied my this. that.’
and ‘wtf. she is soooo fake’.
Don’t you think you sounded like a 12 years old?
And hello, internet is world wide, you know?
Errr, you do know that right?

God. There are so many things I can go on about but I’m lazy already.
I know you’re going to read this.
And most prolly you’d tell your sister about it and she’ll read it too.
Then you two’d bitch about me.
Which hopefully leads to you two spamming my blog as anonymous posters because
DAMNNNNN. THAT’D PROVE SO MUCH MAN. SOOOO MUCH.

*note the sarcasm* HA-HA.

Toodles.

Like so bloody unfair until can die dot com.

Why the fuck is Yaksha in Malacca?
Why does Joe Tribe have to open it there?
Tell meeeeee whyyyy!
Half price okay!

HALFFFFFF!

What an emotional week. LOL.

I think some of you know what I’m talking about.
Well like Nerd says, “Kick ‘em out, kick ‘em as far as Pluto“.
And I’m doing so, what’s the point of trying any more?
I’ll try to talk through things one last time in one fine day, then that’s that.

Sounds good enough?
Well it is for me.

It’s funny nowadays I only blog when I feel like saying something that bothers me.
But I guess I like it this way and I honestly want to change the bloody skin of this blog.
I’m so tired of looking at the same colours and most importantly, my retarded face.

Thursday is Ladies’ Night!
Was supposed to go The School at Bangsar with Vivien and all but cancelled last minute.
Then boyfriend wanted to go Decanter, Hartamas to drink and called up Victor.
Then boyfriend changed his mind and wanted to club instead and called up Damien.
Then Damien said he was broke and so all plans were cancelled.
Then we picked up Damien and Kevin, his brother and went to the bank to withdraw money.
Then we went over to boyfriend’s house to leave the car there while Victor was waiting outside.
Then realising all of us are loaded with the exception of Kevin, we started planning again.
Then there were plans to club, karaoke, drink, club again, drink again then we ended up at mamak.

And that was all.
Chau ci pet.
So potong.

Lucky they agreed that we’re doing all those failed plans on Friday.
Wheeeeeeeee.

Oh nowadays there are a lot of people I know whose email accounts got hacked.
So people, becareful.
I have no idea how hackers work but yea, change those passwords frequently.
Tho’ I don’t. Aha.

And also becareful when you’re out.
Especially you ladies!
This week itself I’ve two friends whom got robbed.
One outside her own house and another at her office when she was heading home.

Mom’s been worried.
I’m going to make boyfriend or whichever guy I’m out with, to hold my stuffs.
Hmm, on second thought, boyfriend looks so weak, better find a tougher looking guy to.

Boy oh boy, a random blog update turned into a watch out! alert.

Dance practise. This Saturday. Can’t freaking wait !

Gossip Girl !
Everyone is talking about it.
I’ve never read the books tho’ I think the tv series is good.
Cannot believe I’ve watched all three episodes in one day.
So far there’s only three episode out online, the fourth ain’t out yet.

And I think Chuck and Nate is gorgeous. Those eyes. Hot.

This is far more better than Phua Chu Kang, Nerd. LOL.

So let’s get down to business.
I’m in the mood to type non stop right now.

Friends. Gah. Still remember my list of people I trust with my life?

Oops. I forgot about Tee Liang.
Nah, I guess he’s not just a friend and plus I find it harder to trust boyfriends.
Also I think it needs a bit of addition because I’m loving Lee Min and Ker Lin.

So here’s the truth, one name in that list, well, I put it up to layan.
To avoid dramas and shit, but I guess I was being too careful.
Cause here’s the thing, I’ve had enough.

I’m tired of layaning.
I’m tired of the fakeness.
I’m tired of all the talks.
I was never down for this kinda shit.
I was only so because I cared for that person.

So why say things are okay between us when you don’t trust me?
Why do you wanna fake and act as if we’re tight when it’s obvious there’s a wall?

I don’t care if you don’t trust me, don’t like me, don’t think I’m a good friend.
Just don’t fucking fake the relationship with me.
Cause once I say we’re real friends, I mean it.
I don’t dig all those stuffs you see on Mean Girls.
In fact, I don’t even want to be mean to you.

But the colours you’ve shown me really pushed me to my limits.

You accused us the last time.
When we all agreed you overthink the situation.
You said things, hurtful things and said we hurt you.
Well are you so sure about that?
Rethink the whole damn scene and see.

I don’t even wanna elaborate because it’d make things obvious.

Don’t say you love me but don’t mean it.
Don’t say we’re friends when you don’t even trust me.
Don’t say anything at all if you don’t feel like saying it to me.
Cause believe me, I won’t care.

I love you and that is why I don’t want to tell it to your face.
I’m doing it like this because I don’t want to see you reaction.
It might hurt.

Plus, I’m afraid if I said things face to face, I’ll most prolly end up shouting and maybe even tearing a bit at the end of it.

Hanging out with more guys than girls make me realise that most friends are there only to use you and for you to use back.
That’s what most of my boys tell me and I believe them cause it’s obvious.
Girls on the other hand are much more complicated, no?

I don’t dig friends that forget friends.
Yes, especially those that has a new girlfriend or boyfriend or let’s just say targets.
Like hello, I respect that but that doesn’t mean you can totally go MIA among us.
Like who the fuck would you turn to if you got dumped and shit?
Think about it.

And if you terasa like I’m talking about you, well too bad, cause it might be you.

I know, I know.
It’s been weeks since an update.
This is a really short one because I’m going to sleep now.
I’m just reminding myself to blog tomorrow because I have some really interesting things to share with you.

I’ll be talking about friends.
Everyone has at least ONE friend right?
Oh god, thinking about it, it’s pissing me off again.

Damn. Taufoo understand kan?