Back in PJ, our heater is dead. So every single day, I wake up feeling afraid to enter the cold bathroom. It is torturing okay! Now that I’m back in KLG for the night. I appreciate my heater really much. I will now go and shower before I continue this entry. Lalalaaa.

Well yeah, I’m blogging regularly again. Can’t help it, I try to update at any chance I have.

The whole week has been a pain in the ass for me. Classes, period cramps, dance practices and assignments. Which reminds me, I have one due this Monday. Fuck. It is not that I’m slacking and do not bother about my assignment. Every night I get home from college, I’m drop dead tired. I will have dinner, I will try to destress by watching television (note : does not help at all), I will talk to Vix, I will try to sleep and eventually end up in bed, staring up at the ceiling for ages before falling asleep. The only day I had to work on my assignment was on Wednesday. That too I needed to ask for permission to leave early from practice. It’s fucked up man.

This whole TTNight thing is killing me for real. Thank goodness there’s another week left till it’s over for good. Can’t wait to have a freaking life back. I do take the whole thing seriously but I think most of them involved in the committee are taking it over the board. And no, I don’t plan to explain what’s TTNight. I admit I sometimes have fun. I admit I met and made a lot of new people and friends but fuck, this shit drove me to the point where when I’m dancing, I feel no passion. There are no feelings involved anymore. It’s purely about getting the routine done on time for the committee members to see and then get screwed for the mistakes. Then get screwed some more for being late for post mortem, get screwed for leaving home early (9.30pm), get screwed for dressing comfortably in college, get screwed, get screwed, get screwed. Kanineh. What happened to encouraging and motivating? Every single time we step up one step, you push us down another three steps. Perfect strategy lah kan.

I’m not hating, I’m ranting. I’m so sick and tired. When I say I’m tired, I mean physically and mentally and I swear to god, I am not being dramatic. I can feel it draining the fucking energy out of me. I don’t even feel like me.

I need a break. I need it so bad. To recover and to study.

To make it worse, I’ve made the decision to move out soon. And no, there is nothing wrong with my relationship. There are just things that are wrong with me. I’m so different than before, now I’m afraid of myself and for myself. Sometimes these thoughts manifest themselves so freely, I cannot control them and myself. Fuck.

I don’t intend to rant but I need to let it out somewhere. You know where the ‘X’ is.

Moving on to happier notes, my co-curicular activity started this week. I joined the swimming club. Yes, I am aware that I can’t swim. The reason why I joined is because they offer free lessons! I am able to float now.

At least this Saturday, I had a good time. Amy and I with her college friend, Sarah went to Urbanscape at KLPac in the evening. We got lost from Setapak to Sentul. For two freaking hours. Today proves one small mistake can take you very far because Sentul is like right beside Setapak. Lol. Our main objective at Urbanscape was to shop. We obviously got lots of cheap goods. I, myself spent less than RM100 and got new a skinny, new shirt, new top and a new bag. I forgot what Amy bought besides the I Heart KL tee. Sarah bought herself the brightest pair of flats. Red flats. She could not wait to rock them in college. Met a number of familiar faces there. In the end, Q managed to get tickets to enter the main stage to join Mika. Right on time for Seven Collar T-Shirt and Pure Vibrations. Thinking back, I would have had a better time if I had beer to drink like everyone else but being a chinese I did not allow myself to pay RM13 per can for a Tiger. God, I hate events like these. Always try to rip off us off when it comes to alcohol. Lol.

Kay lah. I’m going off to bed. Toodles world.

I almost forgot to mention..

I GOT MY HAIR CUT AND DYED!

Costed a bomb but hey, at least this time I love it.

…I’d like to elaborate about them but I’m tired and I need to rush back to PJ now so we’ll save it for next time.

Naqib posted up pictures of his 22nd birthday at Laundry and I stole some from his album on FB. Damn sad lah okay. My camera is a piece of crap so I’ve not bothered to take it out and my Polaroid kinda dieded for good.

Kay lah. At least now my post got a few pictures. DAMN SAD LAH WOI. At least I bought a new umbrella. Yay!

I think I have this habit of coming up with post titles that has nothing to do with my entry content.

(started changing the layout of my myspace profile for a good one hour)

Right, back to whatever I have to say. I’m currently blogging at the comfort of my own home and computer. It feels wonderful. I get to sit here as long as I want without worrying about how much an hour, no wait, scratch that, one minute would cost me if I was at a cyber cafe. I’m looking after my sister while my mom is out on her date. Yes, my mom is dating. She finally admitted to us. There are a bunch of men trying their luck but my mom ain’t one easy fish to catch. She wasn’t easy back then, she still ain’t easy now. I’ve yet to meet any one of these men but Tommy and Xin had and I trust their judgement.

And no, I do not and will not blame my mom for dating so soon. I’m thrilled that she is. She’s been through so much and too long, she needs changes. I know her well and she assured us she will not settle down. Obviously. Lol.

I am currently feeling very unwell and yet very in love. Weirdo, I am. Laugh Me, You Will Not. Cause I’m rarely this happy and it is almost unreal to me. I am appreciating every single moment before it goes away because at the end of the day, you will only have the memories and nothing else. At times the relationship gets tough due to my temper and snappiness. I’m a real witch but hey, he always managed to bring the worse and the best out of me whenever and wherever. My ego can be as big as *insert whatever* and to hear me apologise after a fight is almost scarce yet he manage to without a sweat.

I never took horoscope seriously but in this case, Leo and Leo. Tsk tsk tsk. We are arrogant bastards. Lol.

“..keep it low, hit the phone.. blablabla.. whoopsie. whoopsie. blablabla..” - iTunes on shuffle lah.

Tommy is a champion. Vix himself did not have the master copy of Whoopsie and Tommy has it. Champion.

I cannot wait until this month is over. There’s nothing really interesting to look forward to, I think. Date Week is over. The whole weekend was perfect. Early morning shopping, new haircut and buffet dinner (minus him not getting his wings whatever). I’m glad we came up with this Date Week thing. Makes every month easier to go through.

Kay lahhh. I’m lazy. I want to download new tracks. Plus, I doubt people read much anymore. LOL.

I’m a very very happy girl, right now.
I’m in love.
I’ve said yes to something I thought I’d never be ready for.
I’ve even considered having two.
I consider myself really lucky.
I think I’ve gone mental.
I’m glad with the outcome of the General Election.
I love spending time with *the people.
I love our time together.
I’m falling too many times in love with the same person, I think it might kill me. Lol.
I’m worried about my results.
I feel like kicking Taufoo for not calling.
I enjoy working 4 days a week.
I am glued to tracks from artist like Colbie Caillat, Robin Thicke, Sara Bareilles, Taylor Swift & Uffie.
I want to go for Colbie Caillat’s show at Laundry this Friday.
I need passes.
I need to dance.
I have to start planning my tattoo already. It’s almost the 16th.

I am going to sleep.

I can’t sleep, again. I think I’m having insomnia. That and also I think because my grandma and her maid took over my bed.

Tonight had been a crazy night. There’s a video. I had fun and it’s been quite some time since I did had fun like this. Whatdakwan! LOL. *inside jokee* 

Been fucking tension since the moment I took the towel off my head in the saloon. The color obviously didn’t turn out the way I wanted it to be. IT’S FUCKING GOLD. The stylist said the color will fade off and turn out right BUT I CANNOT WAIT FOR A MONTH! According to her, it takes that long and the times I wash my hair. Does it really work like that? I have no clue man. I main dengar aje.

I told everyone that cared to listen that I’m going to lock myself in my house for a month. And if I really had to step out of the house, I’m wearing a freaking cap. AND I HATE CAPS. Makibai. OH WAIT. HOODIES! I’m going to steal every single fucking hoodie any of my friend owns just to hide my fugly hair.

And to think back I was so excited. Goddamnit.

First thing I did after seeing the outcome, texted my boyfriend. ‘You are so gonna dump me.’ Oh trust me love, it is that bad.

Kay kay. I’ve just googled out the problem and it seems like the whole fading hair color thing works. HOT WATER BABY! But it might fuck it up to a worse condition. I’ll give it a try man. And if one month it doesn’t work, I’m heading back to the stylist.

Tension.

Go onnnn laugh at me. Hmph.

Good morning!
Been awhile since I woke up early. Lalalaa.

I tell you it’s easy to make me feel guilty if you have a mouth like my boyfriend. Make me feel guilty enough to let him through my private entries. That’s what woke me up actually. (powderful my backside, bee) Lol.

Sunday was a laid back day. Vix and Sajeev came over to Klang and picked Xin and I up. Boyfriend loves my babysister more than he loves me. Tsk. It was great to see them get along. Xin kicked him! Haha. Had breakfast/lunch before heading to Aeon to catch a movie with Amy. Flood is a stupid movie. We never found out how it end because we left it the cinema halfway through the movie. Goddamn slow.

Tommy, Kaviin, Preveen, Hashok and Robyn met us there too. I’ve not walk around Aeon with such a big group before. It was pure siaoness. THEY TRY TO KILL ME OKAY. Wanted to push me over the staircase when I was in the trolley. ALL OF THEM. See, I told you guys I was going to blog about this. =) KILL LAH ME SUMMORE! *drama*

Okay. I heard the door downstairs. Mom’s back meaning I better go shower. We’re heading to the salon. I’m coloring my hair today! I’m so effin excited. Sorry lahh. My first time okay.

Now that I’ve gotten all that out of my chest, I can talk cock. (refering to the previous entry)

Let’s start off with I WANT TO FREAKING DYE MY HAIR. Yes, I’m breaking my own promise. I’m tired of black hair. I want a change but I’m afraid of spoiling my hair and etc. Etc includes the money I’d need to maintain my hair after it’s dyed and the ugliness after a couple of months. You know, the normal drill of coloring your hair.

I don’t know what I want to do with it. Definitely nothing major. I don’t want to color my whole head. I think I’ll freak out. I just want it colored a bit here and there. Bugger. Never knew coloring one’s head would be such a frustrating thing.

Any good recommendations? Salons, I mean. To go to. Lol.

Anywayyyyy, last Monday was Sheue Ing’s 18th birthday. Yes yes, happy birthday, yada yada. Had an All Girls Night Out. Nothing crazy because whoever that knows Ing, knows what kind of person she is. Pfft. LOLOL. We obviously had tons of fun. Amy and I had the best time running around the mall, getting her secret birthday present. It was crazy man but I’m glad she loved it at the end of the day.

Finally! Pictures to post ! It’s been weeks since I last did. Months actually. There are not much, not like the usual amounts but hey, the siaoness is still there throughout the shots. =)

The Taufoo that was there but did not join us. (Psst. Bila BBQ ni?)

My favourite shot of the night. Lol.

Tzi Li, Su Leng, Ee Von and a very stoned looking Amy. <3

Mei Lian

Sheue Ing’s very very bad photography skills. Teehee.

Alaaaa. What a night.

Not as attractive as it’d look like with Photoshop’s edits but hey, I’m lazy.

OMG. It feels darn good to be blogging.
I’m dying to tell you how’s working at TGI Friday’s like but I’m on morning shift tomorrow.

Here’s summary so far..

one. Amy pierced her tongue on Wednesday.
two. I most prolly won’t pierce my tongue since Vix told me it turns french kissing off.
three. Vix will be a new name on my blog that’s going to appear very frequently.
four. I’ve been in Subang & PJ more than I’ve been in Klang.
five. I feel so fucking left out from the other world so I’ll most prolly go bang bang when I get my salary.

And I’m talking about salary when I’ve only worked less than a week.

I’m amazing.

Sunday was a good, long day.
I dropped by Figure Eight over at Annexe Gallery, Central Market to buy stuffs.
Finally got myself the ‘I Heart KL‘ shirt, a top from Dirt-tee and necklace from Wondermilk.
I had only RM100 in my wallet so I had to budget and control myself when I saw those tees from Kurasa Raksasa, bags from Flowerdrum, more shirts from Defy and more junks from Wondermlik.

BAHHH. If only I had more than that. Those tees are so worth buying, damnit!
But I’m satisfied.

Tried them on as soon as I showered.

I’m a very miserable woman right now.
Seeing those science stream students all free from the ass of spm.
Seeing Wei Yang at Aeon buying his ice cream made me wanted to strangle him.

A joke. LOL.

It’s almost over. Next Wednesday. Very soon. *comfort self*

I hate Aeon.
No, I hate Eng Ho.
Because if it wasn’t for him calling me up to tell me about Big Apple, I wouldn’t be addicted to them.

Those donuts are drugs.

That place has only been open for four days and I’ve bought those donuts for two days straight. Simply crazy. I’ve never been a donut kind of person but that all changed now.

And today right after my paper, I went back and bought some more.
An addition to that, I’ve come to realised the many restaurants and counters of good looking food around the ground floor. Oh, I’ve seen those others upstairs but I’ve decided to attack them one by one by floors.

HELL YEAH BABY.
One by one.

I’m not even interested with the shops.
Maybe one, no wait, three.
Hommy, Room and 2:30.
There are clocks I want to get.
Those paintings I saw in Room.
Those pillows in 2:30.
And CLOCKS!
OMG. THEY ARE GORGEOUS!

I have a thing for interior designs.
One of my small time dream was to be an interior designer until I came to realise that I can’t draw. Too bad the Room in Aeon doesn’t sell Lomos. It’s for the better tho’, Amy and I would probably end up sitting outside the shop, just staring at it.
So okay, that’s all for now.
I want to get those things but it’s not like I have the cash to.
I’m just entertaining myself.
You’re lucky I don’t tell you who my imaginary boyfriend is.
You’d probably laugh until you choke.

YES LAH. I STILL HAVE IMAGINARY FRIENDS AND BOYFRIENDS.
I’ve never had them when I was young so now I’m going through that whole process, can?
A bit too old but SO WHAT?

Finally after almost a year of looking, I’ve found my favourite air freshener.
First came to the smell in Kang Woei’s car last year then Boon Roy’s.
I swear to fucks I looked everywhere for them.
Bloody Airwick promoters probably hid them so that I can’t buy.
I want my room to smell like that. *floats dreamily*
But I haven’t buy. GAHHHHHHH.

I know I sound a lot like a kid today.
Beats me what’s wrong with me I don’t know.
See even my English has gone haywire.
I think is the donut.

Like so bloody unfair until can die dot com.

Why the fuck is Yaksha in Malacca?
Why does Joe Tribe have to open it there?
Tell meeeeee whyyyy!
Half price okay!

HALFFFFFF!

I ran out of interesting things to talk about.
BUTTTTTTT.. I had a haircut today.
Again. LOL.

And the first friend to see me in person is Taufoooo.

Oh and I made another new friend today.

His name is Sam.
And he’s *insert word*. LOL.
I hope not all bartenders are like him.
Gone lah then.

And he told me, you gotta have passion to be a bartender.

Hmmmm.

Got to hang out with Taufoooo today and it was only the two of us.
I like it like that. Seriously.
We had so much in common actually.
So mufffucking much.

Then drove home before getting another call from Kaviin.
Vivien was there with him along with another two fellas.
Damn, I’ve not seen the girl enough so of course I went.

Sat there at Botanic Park and had our girl talk before the guys intrude.
Had a veryyyyy long emo talk.
Like seriously damnnnn kao long.

But it was all good time.

Well I was busy and lazy, so here’s my update on what happened during my birthday.
It was on Monday, for those who didn’t know.

I’ll start with Sunday night, right before 12am.
Went KL with Ker Lin, AhLek (her boyfriend) and Keatz to shop.
Decided to watch a movie, Flash Point.
Spent the 12am there in the cinema.
Got back Klang and asked them to drop me off at Esso Mamak.
Yumcha for a while with TL and Victor.
Head home to blow my first cake which the boys, including Dummy, bought for me.

The sweet guy waited for me until he couldn’t wait any longer before heading back to Setapak.
Big time apologies there.

Monday was full with birthday wishes from schoolmates.
Quite awkward for me though.
Imagine walking and suddenly someone head towards you and hug you / wish you.
Damn sweet but awkward. *blush*

Thanks to those who did, by the way.
Did as in wished me, either through smses, messages / comments on Friendster / Myspace , phone calls and comments on the chatbox right here.

That evening was spent with Kareshi who tagged along with me to the dance studio.
Then at night it was supposed to be a clubbing night with Ker Lin and the rest but plans changed and we ended up having steamboat then speeding all the way to Sanctuary, The Curve where I blew out candles for my second cake and had my first Flaming Lamborghini.

After that day, I had another surprise from my classmates.
I was fooled and so was Suzanne.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, by the way.

Annabel was the mastermind behind all that.
She and the rest told me that it was a surprise lunch party at MCD for Suzanne and told Suzanne the same thing but it was for me.

You should have seen the look on our face when they took out the cake.
Amy had her best laugh.

That was on Wednesday.

On Thursday pula, Amy, Ze Tong and Cheng Yong gave me a surprise by going all the way to The Apartment, The Curve to get me more cuppacakes.
I know Ing and Michy were behind this too.
Seriously right, I LOVE YOU GIRLS LAHHHH.

Okay. I see so many words also kepala pening.
Pictures?

Pimples issue? I KNOW!
I’m working on it to make it better.
But it’s so not working if I’m not sleeping enough and especially not sleeping at all.

Kareshi’s saying I should take care of my face because I’m a girl.
Victor’s backing him up.
Amy has been teasing.
Nerd’s being really happy that she is.
Kayu’s refering to them as stars.
And a whole bunch of them who did talk about it that I forgot.

I’m lazy okay?
I used to not care much but now I will learn to.

Can?

I want to die lah like this. Swt.

Ishhhh. I wanna go.
I want the survival kit too.

Mom’s most probably giving me the money to sign up for Y Fitness.
RM 480 baby. Like half the price of the normal package.
Just because I’m only 16 and not a day older from that.

The deal needs to be sign by Sunday, 5th August, 12am.

There’s not going to be a party on my birthday this year.
Chinese tradition and all.
Plus, I’d like to keep the hype for next year when I turn 18.
That’d be even better.

Most prolly celebrating with friends, that is if they remember.
I know some of them do but not the ones I was hoping that would.
I just wish they’ll not break my heart on my birthday.
*crosses fingers*

OMG. I’m soooooooo bloooody happppyyyyy.